Sunday, June 15, 2014

Another school assignment about Exchange

Here's another old essay I wrote for school about coming home from being an exchange student and the bittersweet feeling that accompanies it. 

A Fusion of Obesity and Freedom
Tears streamed down my fire-red cheeks as I said my goodbyes and absentmindedly followed the program leaders out the hotel doors toward the airport. After six months in a new country with new friends, a new family and new surroundings, I readied myself to leave this new life I had created and return to my real home.
            With Parisian voices echoing through my ears, I carefully captured each word and placed it in my memory as I trudged through security. Accompanied by eight other American girls who were busily chatting away, I isolated myself as I observed all the awful French habits I had somehow come to love in this country of cheese and wine. The terribly impertinent French attitude, the overpriced magazines, and the constant linger of cigarette smoke had somehow all became things I was sorry to say goodbye to. Within an hour of arriving at the airport, I boarded Delta flight 185 back to the United States.
            As the plane lifted over the city of Paris, smog rested among the ancient buildings covered in cracks. The Eiffel Tower loitered far off in the city known for romance and overpopulated with tourists. Tears continued to spill down my cheeks while a quick grin invaded my mouth as the thought of going home flashed through my mind. After nine short hours of nerves, chatting, and anxiousness we all clasped hands as Delta flight 185 ended its journey on the PDX runway.
            The friendliness of the US customs worker surprised me along with the obesity of the woman behind me in her newly worn bleached tourist shoes.  As I finished with customs, I spotted my family whose eyes immediately lit up. Through the smiles and hugs I couldn’t help but feel glum as I wondered what my family in France was making for dinner. On the way home I couldn’t help but notice the amount of leg space in our immense Buick as it devoured the gas. Pulling up to my house, I felt as if it had grown, but after entering it, I found it to be the same place I had left many months ago. As I sprawled out onto my cozy bed, the mattress seemed to harden beneath me, and within the comfort of my own home, I grew cold. Shortly after reacquainting with my home, my best friends exploded through the back door and attacked me with hugs. Although I felt happy to see them, I noticed one of them stop to check her IPhone a few seconds after reuniting. After a few questions about my new life, the topics quickly shifted to the newest Instagram picture and Facebook post. With my oldest friends back by my side, I felt relieved but also found the petty conversations to be perturbing.
            After weeks of the bitter readjustment, my home grew warm again, my bed became spongy, and portion sizes changed from the monstrous plates to normal, however, my views are not where they once were. My enlightening experience changed many of my views, but readjusting these new views to my old life was a challenge in itself. My return home exemplifies the saying, “nothing is all-good and nothing is all-bad, it is simply bittersweet”.


Recipe for an Exchange Student

So I know it has been forever since I have posted anything on here and it's not extremely relevant to my life anymore. Anyway though, I was cleaning out my computer and found something I had written for a class describing some of the feelings of an exchange student. So voilà, here it is.


Recipe for an Exchange Student

American Student:
Across the world, extremely far we did travel
Argentine Student:
Learning, discovering, and questioning it all
French Student:
Near and far, they accept stereotypes
American Student:
Tasting new foods:
Deciding whether or not to get tattooed.
Let’s step outside of the box
And try to understand these weird looking clocks.
Yearning for your own bed,
But not wanting to leave the amazing bread.
All:
Everyday filled with ups and downs
As the foreign kid, you’re always the talk of the town
Argentine Student:
Learning to speak in another tongue,
And other things we can only do while we are young.
Always writing a new word,
Sometimes all we want is to just be heard.
Too much time, but somehow not enough,
I’m beginning to think I’m losing all my stuff.
Everyday I am continuously awed
But that is what it’s like to study abroad.
All:
Everyday is filled with ups and downs
As the foreign kid, you’re always the talk of the town
French Student:
We can fall asleep in class,
Because we are getting a pass.
The questions never seem to stop,
Lots of time spent in the coffee shop.
There is too much host family drama,
I really wish I could just be with my mamma.
Life at home gets further away,
It’s important to realize that you just can’t stay.
Are you ready to go?
Well pack up your suitcase
And with your new friends, embrace.
The plane won’t wait
So hurry, don’t be late
All:
Everyday is filled with ups and downs
As the foreign kid, you’re always the talk of the town
Argentine Student:
We’ll talk often and meet again,

Hopefully soon, but none of us know when.

Monday, August 20, 2012

Coming Home, A Stranger

43 days ago I left France, my second home.
These last 43 days have been filled with a lot of emotion. Some days of smiles, yet some nights of tears.

Before I went on exchange a returnee told me that coming home would be the hardest thing I ever did in my life and that couldn't be more true. Coming home has been extremely enlightening but also the hardest thing. There is so much to smile about in my life here but that doesn't change the fact that there are so many things about France that I find myself missing.

The hardest thing of it all is becoming a stranger in your own life. I feel like my own life has changed and I am just an onlooker now even though everybody says I am the exact same person as I was when I left. But the truth is, I am completely different. The things that I used to love to do just don't appeal to me in the same way they did before. I think after seeing so many things and living such a different life, I adjusted to a constant change and excitement. Without that I am simply bored. And being bored of the things that all of my friends and the old me used to love is the hardest thing.

In France I learned a lot, about myself and the rest of the world. It's as if I am looking through a new lens after my time abroad with AFS. As hard as coming home has been I don't regret a single thing. I am so grateful for my life here and the opportunities that I have been offered. Each day I adjust a little bit more to my life in Oregon, making it a little easier. However that does not lessen the amount I miss the people who I have had the chance to meet.

Yes, my experience abroad is over and I am home in the US. However, my experience will continue to impact me as I chose what direction to go in next with my life. And with that I will say goodbye to this blog for a while. I am sure there will be a few more times when I need to write about the impact AFS has made on my life and find myself back here. But for now I need to get back to my real life here and find where I need to be again. You can't be in two places at once so now I need to learn how to balance my two worlds, without living in the past.

Thank you for all of the support everybody has given me through this stepping stone in my life. I really appreciate it. And to anybody who is considering going abroad, DO IT! Yes it will be hard at some points but in the end it's all worth it. Going on exchange was the most rewarding experience of my life and I couldn't be happier with my decision to go.

Thank you again.
 bientôt.
Courtney Aldridge

Saturday, August 4, 2012

La France me manque

As I lay here in bed trying to sleep I find it almost impossible.
Every night since I have been back in the US there is about an hour before I fall asleep where I lay in bed and all the things I miss about France come drifting through my head. And as each memory comes to mind, the hole in my stomach grows a little bigger to the point when I find myself wide awake. Wide awake missing the things that I never even took time to notice or be thankful for.

I find myself missing absolutely everything about my life in France. Le pain (the bread). My friends. French class, which seemed to drown on for hours. My host sister. My host brother. Both of my host parents. Our bunk bed. Disney karaoke with my host sister. Outdoor cafés. Monacos. Centre-ville. Spending hours on the stairs just enjoying company. Luciana. Enzo. All of my classmates. Pontus de Tyard. The cheese. Not always being able to explain everything. Asking how to say things in French. Speaking french. Crêpes. Nutella. Chez moi. Trains. Sleepovers on the countryside. The Saone river. Day trips to Dijon. Family meals. French T.V.. Language confusions. Sharing a room. My host grandparents.The familiar streets of Chalon. The church bells ringing every hour. Le Cathé. Abby. The form of Vous. Taunting smell of the bakeries in the morning. Walk to school. Discovering many things each day. The constancy of being curious. My little red flip phone. Reading Le Petit Prince with my host sister. The excitement of using a new word you just learned. Listening to French speaking english. The garden.  The word "grave". My daily routine.

And this is only the beginning of a very long list that runs through my head over and over again each night.

The things I might never live again and the people who I don't get to see everyday anymore or even on a weekly basis. It's hard, harder than I ever thought it would be. And of course I am so happy to be with my family and friends again but even that happiness does not manage to cover up the pain of missing somethings so much. And its not just "somethings", it's another life, it's my other life.

The Unfortunate End of this Journey

Well after 5 and a half months in France I am home. I will talk about how the adjustment has been in another post but now I want to talk about my last week, which I spent with 3 other AFS students, my liaison, and 2 of her kids. It was a very busy trip and we had so much fun!

That Monday we said our goodbyes to our families and our dear town Chalon sur Saone and headed off to paris at 8 o'clock in the morning. We had a quick lunch, which we ate in the car then went to the Bateaux Mouches. It was about an hour long boat ride down the Seine in the heart of Paris. After that we went to see the French Statue of Liberty, Le Pont des Arts, Notre Dame and a little of downtown. Le Pont des Arts is a famous bridge in Paris where couples would go and lock a padlock to the bridge then throw the key in. After visiting a little of Paris we headed to our hotel which was on the outskirts of Paris, closer to EuroDisney. We had dinner at a restaurant next to the hotel, which actually seemed very American to me, then went back to the hotel and stayed in for the night.







 Tuesday morning we woke up nice and early, then left for EuroDisney! We spent the whole day there between two parks. It was so much fun, of course Disney always is! However I was surprised to see how much the tourism there had affected it. While there I felt as if I was in the US, especially considering most people were speaking english and there was hardly any French influence. We went on all the rides there and watched the fireworks show at night. Then at around midnight we headed back to the hotel.

Wednesday morning we packed up the car and set off for the Palais de Versailles. We spent the morning exploring the beautiful castle, but even more the enchanting garden which is immense. After eating lunch right across the street from the castle we took a 4 hour drive to the beach in the region of Bretagne, which is in the Northwest of France. It was a long drive in a crowded, hot car but it was most definitely worth it. We had a small dinner when we got back and then went out into the small beach town for the night.
On Thursday morning we headed off to Mont Saint-Michel, about 45 minutes away. Mont Saint-Michel is an island off the coast of the region of Normandy. There are a ton of little shops, restaurants, and a few museums on the island. On top of the island stands a grand church that dates back to 708 A.D.. We visited the island and a few museums just until 2 pm, when we had walking tour in the sand surrounding the island. There we learned about the sinking sand and had to cross a few mini rivers, which was fun expect for the cold weather. Just as we were walking back toward the island the rain started to fall extremely hard and by the time we got back all of our clothes were completely soaked! After that we headed back to the hotel to get warm! We went to get galettes, which is similar to a salty crêpe that can be eaten with all types of salty toppings, including eggs, chicken, and many types of vegetables. Then for dessert we had crêpes, which were absolutely amazing! We ended the night going out, making some friends, and visiting the beach a little.

Then Friday morning I took a train with Luciana and Enzo back to Paris. We were pretty exhausted from the trip so we stayed pretty mellow in Paris, just exploring different neighborhoods and shops trying to take in our last bits of France. We also went to Galeries Lafayette, which was absolutely enormous with 7 or 8 floors in the main building and then about 5 stories in the 2 other buildings. We actually got separated there and spent almost 2 hours looking for each other! After finally reuniting we found a Parisian restaurant to eat a nice dinner in. We then headed back to the hotel completely exhausted on the metro. When we got to our room we ran a bubble bath and had a fun time blowing bubbles into the streets of Paris. We spent the night talking and finally fell asleep a while after.

Saturday morning we packed up all of our luggage, went to get breakfast, then headed off to the AFS building. The car ride was sad with the knowledge we were about to say some very hard goodbyes. When we got there we loaded all of our suitcases into a big bus with some other students and said our goodbyes to our liaison and her two sons who we had all gotten really close with over the time of our exchange. Then we finally got on the bus and headed to the hotel, near the airport, where we would be spending our last night in France. When we got there we were reunited with about 250 other AFS students who were in France, including both semester and year long stay students. We did a few activities in groups about what we learned, differences, and how we changed over our time in France. After we finished with that we just hung out and talked with kids from all over the world for a few hours until dinner. We had some type of tart and chicken for our last dinner in France and then had a small closing ceremony. We watched a few AFS videos, did the typical AFS funky chicken dance, took pictures, said most of our goodbyes, and shed lots of tears. The night ended with receiving our flight information and then being sent off to bed. I stayed with two friends from my region, Luciana and Aymara.



Then Sunday morning I woke up with Luciana to say goodbye to our good friend Enzo at 5 in the morning. It was hard, but I think we were too tired to really realize that this was goodbye. We then went back up to bed only to wake up for good a few hours later. We then went and got breakfast, took showers and got ready to leave. The breakfast was amazing with warm pain au chocolats, croissants, and a ton of other options. Then a few hours later after rearranging my suitcases, hoping to meet the limit, and making sure I had everything it was time for the American semester students to leave. That was the moment that tears started to run and didn't stop. I hugged my best friend and we both cried and made promises to see each other again soon. And that right there was one of the hardest moments of my life. Then the AFS lady herded us out the door and as long as I tried to stay behind saying goodbye eventually they wouldn't let me anymore and I was forced to leave. With tears streaming down my face and hopes to see my friends who had become my family again I walked out the doors absentmindedly following the volunteers.

We checked in through Air France Along with me I had the same two suitcases I had arrived with five and a half short months earlier, and although I had a new purse, a new watch, and longer hair most of what I had gained in France couldn't be seen. This time when I checked into my flight  at Charles De Gaulle I had a lot more than I did when I checked into my flight at JFK. I refuse to write that crap that you hear so often about people "finding themselves abroad", however I will say I grew up in France. I'm the same person but I have seen a lot more, I have become more independent, I have lived with two french families, I have attended two french high schools and I have met people who truly changed my life. When I look back at myself when I boarded the plane in New York with 10 other Americans, I see myself as naive and trusting. And even though I am still a kid, I was forced to grow up in France.

Anyway we then had a ten hour flight all talking about the people we had met, the crazy stuff we had done, and what we were really going to miss. We filled out custom forms, ate our airplane food and got ready to take our first steps back in the US. When the flight finally reached its end, we all clasped hands as the plane landed and took our first bittersweet breath back on American soil.

Friday, June 29, 2012

Where has the time gone?

Today I pulled out my suitcase and started loading up my vacuum bags, hoping I would be able to fit everything. It feels like just yesterday I was sealing up those vacuum bags back in Oregon getting ready to stay goodbye. Here I am getting ready to say goodbye again, but to another life. A life that I have grown to love and will never forget.

So I know I have blogged hardly anything this month and I am sorry for that but I really have been busy! With the end of school, some traveling, birthdays, and a lot more! Here are some of the highlights with some pictures. Enjoy! :)


I went to Lyon for a day with Luciana and Enzo. I had already gone with my host parents but it was nice to revisit. It is really a beautiful town with so much to offer.


 I also went to see a bunch of hot air balloons take off with my host mom. Unfortunately after we got there it was announced that the hot air balloons wouldn't be taking off due to the weather conditions. However one took off anyway.


Then there was the 40th anniversary of AFS France in my region (Bourgogne) so there was a big party in my town for that with AFS people from all over France. It consisted of a dinner, taking lots of pictures, dancing, singing and a few speeches about AFS. I never thought AFS would become such a big part of my life, but it has become somewhat like a family.
































Then with the end of the school year, terminal (senior class) organized a huge water fight in the park at school during lunch. However, along with the water students brought eggs, flour and other stuff that kids were picking out of their hair for the rest of the day in class.


We also celebrated my host brother's 18th birthday with all of the host family at the house, which was a lot of fun!

My friends and I ate pizza together next to the river and then went to a cafe later for our last night altogether. They gave me a ton of presents and it was so sweet. It was really hard saying goodbye to all of them and I will never forget them. They helped me around the halls when I was lost and were patient enough to explain ancient french poems to me. I am really going to miss them!

 I tasted escargot (snails) for the first time at my host grandparents house as well. It was odd, but I surprisingly liked them! It was hard saying goodbye to my host parents as well.



Including all of this I also headed across France to Nantes, which is in the west about 45 minutes away from the beach. I took a 7 hour train with Luciana then spent a wonderful week in the fifth biggest town in France. We stayed  in the center of town with another AFS family who was really great! There was also another chinese guy who came for the week to stay with the family. The family was really welcoming and friendly. During the week we visited several museums, a castle, took a boat ride, explored the town and had a really good time! We also made fajitas for the family one night, we really nervous about them but in the end they turned out really good! Also during the week there was a huge music festival, that happened to be on Luciana's 18th birthday, all around France. To celebrate Luciana's birthday the family we were staying with bought a cake and we sang happy birthday. Then at night there was music lining the streets all over with bands, djs, singers- everything musical. Then of course you had people all over dancing to the music. It was really an incredible night! During the week we also got a chance to do a little bit of shopping. Then on the last day there the woman we were staying with took us to the beach. Unfortunately the weather was pretty bad, but it was still great to visit the beach! Overall it was really a great week, one I will definitely never forget.








So that is what I have been up to the last month. I hope to get one more blog post in before I head home in 9 days. I am going to Paris the week before with some friends and my AFS liaison, which unfortunately means I will be leaving my host family in 2 days. I am not ready to go home but I have a life in America that I need to get back to. 
Bisous!


Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Life lesson

If there is one thing I have really learned in France, it's to not take anybody for granted. When you spend 5 months without the people who have always surrounded you, you realize how important they are to you. Here on the other side of the world, I have realized how great of people I have in my life and I have stopped taking them for granted. Along with learning who cares you also learn who doesn't. And as unfortunate as this may be, it's the truth. I have learned who is really there and who I can live without. With that I can say how I also have been forced to realize how important my family is to me. They have given me so much support through this journey and I am so appreciative for that. Thanks mom and dad, I love you.